Anime

When I end up watching anime, it is always like dream. And I wander, why I have to go back to reality. Am I schizophrenic - living in other world? It's hard to get back and thoughts are just flying and reliving anime. Maybe it's just my way running away from everyday life? Probably everybody does it.

I used to write stories a lot to escape from world. I can't do that recently. Not that I don't have ideas, but I can't really sit down and do it. It seems too wrong - everything I write is without soul. And I can't write.

Animes is different. You don't need to give soul to them. They have their own life and you can live it for a moment. But it always leaves emotions - sadness, loneliness and will for love and being loved. Is it good or bad? I can't tell.

Today was one of the Anime Weekend days. We watched "The Voices of Distant Star" and "The Place Promised in Our Early Days" both made by director Makoto Shinkai, who is still very young. Both were very moving, but I liked second more.

I actually read about "The Voices of Distant Star" before and in review it sounded better than actual anime."The Place Promised in Our Early Days" was really amazing. I was deeply moved.

Now I'm home already, but keep listening anime music (Chobits, .//hack.sign, cowboy bebop etc.) to keep up the mood. I want to learn one Japanese song - Hajimari no Kaze by Ayaka Hirahara. It's sugoi (amazing). I liked related anime Saiunkoku Monogatari as well. It's very different from all others as it happens in ancient China.

I keep thinking about cosplay. At the end I decided about 4 my favorite characters:
- Tohru from Fruits Basket (very easy to make as it is school uniform)
- Yuurei from Saiunkoku Monogatari (will have to do a lot of work on it)
- Shinku from Rozen Maiden (would look cool as it is a little bit ancient)
- Éclair from Kiddy Grade (thought I haven't seen all series, I love her outfit)

Deciding is one, but actually going somewhere and making costumes is completely something different. I will be probably too shy to do something like that ^^ But I like dreaming and sometimes it can come to reality

I'm sleepy now, but happy that I did this post. Otherwise it would be floating in my head without any direction!

Matane (^o^)/